who.am.i.really?

im a hippy
a punk
a glamour queen
a goth
a star
no im not scene
im a free spirit
one of a kind
just like everyone else
dont call me greebo
or wannabe
cause you just cant stand
not bein better than me
im high and mighty
im a hypocrite
im a dyke icon baby
but im straight
you give me a reputation
that i just cant escape
how can i be a dyke
when im in love with my BOYfriend
im a rockstar
kissing girls on screen
but i wont burn out
because i no iv got you babe

i remember the first time anyone told me i was pretty
it was the first time id worn a full face of makeup
and you said
ya know what?
you can be pretty when you try
you broke my heart that day


I am the girl that no-ones knows
In the corner, dark, alone.

I am the girl you'll never remember
Who you saw and kissed that sweet December

I am the shadow with no face
Lost in the crowd without a place.

I am the girl with secret eyes
Why can't you see through my disguise?

I am the girl without a name
Her life so secret, full of pain.

I am the girl you wish you could be
Silent, quiet, you don't know me.

I am the girl you find alone in the dark
In the blackness, life has lost its spark.

I am THAT girl, the shameless one
The one left here when you're all gone.

I am the girl you wish you didn't know
You've seen me dance in the winter snow.

I am the girl who'll fade away
I am the girl who's gone today.


<3 i wish i could escape

<3 i wish i was deeper

<3 and i wish i was with her

<3 i wish i could protect my PK

<3 im not a sally doll for your use only

<3 sometimes i feel like im out here all alone

<3 the closer i get to feeling the further im feeling from alright

<3 i wish i could paint the world pink so you could smile

<3 you'll know im yours when i smile when i see you. everytime.

<3 i might not smile all the time, but im not sad all the time either

<3 if i zone out on you im sorry, its just cause i dont wanna be there so im escaping to some place else

<3 i always want to be better. ill never be good enough for me. never.

<3 i wish she could see me when she makes me smile so she could smile with me

<3 i wish i could tell you the truth about my past so you would understand why im like i am

<3 i write poetry because i cant cry. i cant show you my true emotions in any other way than words. you see the real me when i write

<3 i wish i knew what it takes to be a superhero in your world

<3 when people stare, its because they are jealous

<3 im not shallow, i just wish i was prettier so i could make people may attention and listen to what i have to say

<3 maybe im too opinionate. or maybe im just the only person who dares to voice their opinion and stand up for what they believe is right

<3 i dont fall in love easily. if i say i love you i mean it with all my heart and soul

<3 im like marmite. you either love me or you hate me. theres no real inbetween.

<3 im insecure and paranoid. so what?

<3 i dont like labelling people, but we will never be able to stop it

<3 i like my jeans baggy or drain pipes, my tees tight fitting and my skirts too short. i wear trashed-up converses or Doc Martens. I own too many pairs of shoes but i still want more.

<3 i didnt believe in true love till <3 Andy <3 found me. he saved me. he has my heart

<3 just because i write poetry it doesnt make me emo. im just emotional. my emotions go to the extremes. ill be ecstatically happy then wish i was dead.

<3 dont judge me

<3 dont add me as a friend unless you actually want to talk to me, i dont want to be one of those girls with 999 friends, with only 3 true friends

<3 if i facsinate you talk to me, i can explain a lot

<3 you might think i dont know what you're going through, but believe me i do

<3 if you want to, i can save you, i can take you away from here

<3 i heart lara

<3 i love andy

i....
¤i hurt: when you smile for me
¤i love: it when i know you love me back
¤i hate: liars, flase faces, misconceptions, preconceptions and cheaters
¤i fear: losing everyone i think is my friend
¤i want: you to be happy
¤i hope: that someday i'll change
¤i feel alone: in a room full of people
¤i listen: for your heart beating
¤i taste: your sweet misery
¤i remember: everything you have ever called me, good and bad
¤i hold: my hopes up only to be broken
¤i hide: the real me from the world
¤i pray: that maybe one day you will understand
¤i walk: because I cant run away any more
¤i drive: myself insane
¤i read: to find my get away car
¤i burn: like a dying flame
¤i play: with pretty people and wish they were me
¤i miss: the little things that make me happy
¤i feel: …I just want to feel
¤i know: that one day it will all be too much for me
¤i dream: your nightmares
¤i have: everything i want, hardly anything i need
¤i am: not who you think i am
¤i need: you
¤i live: in hell
¤i crave: my next fix of my addiction - you
¤i wont: run away, it would mean i was beaten
¤i pretend: that everything’s ok
¤i smile: when you don’t understand
¤i cant: hide any more
¤i laugh: so you don’t know how bad I’m hurting inside
¤i lie: to myself and all you around me, you don’t really know me
¤i wish: i could keep you forever
¤i trust: no one, not even me


maybe sometimes things are my fault and maybe sometimes they are not
but i always feel guilty, even if its something stupid
i cry alot, for no reason at all, just to get things out there
i hear you say things, but do you feel what im saying?

sometimes i fall into the arms of no one at all

i wish on stars
but do wishes come true? no,i didnt think so, not until i met you

im as cold as ice sometimes
but other times i can melt even the iciest of hearts
im not gonna be a rockstar because i dont wanna get that far
im not a cliche
but im not what you think either
you dont really know me, hardly anyone does
lara, andy, tim- id die without them
one day i wil fly away and you will not even notice


if i was gone tomorrow would you even notice?
maybe im dead inside
or maybe iv only just started to really feel

maybe


am i even real anymore?

are you real?


im not real?
breathe for me when im choked up on emotion

i scare people when i cry because they really think im that strong
one day i will cry and you will die inside

make a wish for me

lies are just beautiful stories to believe in

im a porcelian doll be careful i dont break

break me

again

who.am.i.really?

im yours